I slowed down with my blogs the past few months, there was a few reasons for this. One being that wedding season totally took over my life, I do this photography milarky for a living as well, and also work full time in the Community Justice System, time was not on my side for the best part of this year. For the first time in a long time I felt the demon effects of stress and anxiety, not pleasant at all, for those who suffer this on a daily basis, I congratulate you for soldiering on, what an awful experience to have for a short period of time, but to suffer from it daily must be horrendous. Of course my stress and anxiety was all self inflicted and thankfully not in the slightest the brutal experience that those who suffer daily must feel, I can only imagine.
Anyway, I don’t want this blog to be a poor me, because nothing in my personal experience was not fixable by just slowing down and remembering that I am a human and alive, that being said, there is something heart rendering about sitting editing day in, day out, night in, night out, hearing your kids and wife living in the house around you, and you are something of a passive observer, then hearing the house go quiet as you still edit away till the wee small hours then get up for the weekend weddings and repeating it all over again. Deadlines and expectations that were getting harder to meet caused my mind to drift to a dark place for a short while, I suddenly became aware of health and the importance of looking after yourself. I was tethering if not sprinting past the line of exhaustion, crash and burnout. I was left pondering photography.
Change In Direction
My interest in street photography as a side line, a hobby, and as a way to develop my eye and skill wasn’t even working, nothing was making me buzz, I had lost my Mojo, it was somewhere sandwiched between stress and anxiety 🙁 as for social media (which is sometimes my only connection with the outside world, 🙂 for those who know my social media presence, They think this is all I do is sit on facebook haha, which I don’t, only when editing to maintain contact with planet earth) even social media was really irritating me, the street photo forums awash with nothing more than digital noise , people posting absolutely any photo (by the way keep doing it, I would never encourage anyone not to post their photos, this is solely about me, my opinion, which is like the old saying, like an areshole, everyone has one) photos that are really nothing more than people standing in a street, all the same, nothing different, eye catching, inspiring, all with the same people commenting the same tedious shite on them, hoping the photo poster commented the same tedious shite on their posted photo. These silly facebook “Street, Urban” groups are nothing more than extended back slapping tribe drivel (sorry, but its true) in order to gain attention you need to get in with the crowd, your photos don’t even need to be any good, all you need to do is comment under one that has the “tribes interest” “my dear Jeremy, what a wonderful scene”, then watch them reply “why thank you my dearest Elizabeth” once you have this feed back you are in. You could post a photo of your toenail on top of a turd, and bang 100+ instant likes and spiels of “My dearest what a fabulous toenail and well polished turd” bla bla bla zzzzzzzzzz.
Meanwhile, some absolutely outstanding photo or work of art goes unnoticed and is lost in the digital mumbling of absolute pointlessness , to the tribe. Again let me reiterate, if that’s what floats your boat, charge on, I’ve told you how to join 😉 . But to be brutally honest, it put me right off street photography , well it hasn’t, I still love street photography, just not social medias understanding of it. So all the past years of trying to be a street photographer have actually made me relies quite quickly that I’m a “Photographer” , plain and simple, by removing the “street” from my conscious mind, my Mojo sprang back into action, the shackles of trying to pigeon hole my style to something it’s not were removed, as a result, I am a far better all round photographer. I should point out there are some outstanding street photo forums, takes a while to find them, but they are there and you can see why it would be silly to post that toenail & turd photo 😉 . I follow about 8 or 9 worldwide “Street” photographers in pool of hundreds of thousands, if not millions, that gives you a clue to digital noise on offer. (again, remember art , photography, love etc are all completely personal and subjective, so if your reading this and are a street photographer, pissed off that I’m not following you, relax, I’m not even saying I am a good street photographer, I’m only telling you what “social media street photography is like”, you must be kind of interested, otherwise you wouldn’t be reading 🙂 , once I find you, I promise to give you a “my dearest comment”. )
Now I buzz around, snapping (McSnapping) everything that I want to 🙂 I don’t snap and think wow, can’t wait to get home and unleash this beauty to the “dearest” tribe 🙂 , now I create images that my eye wants, my heart wants and most importantly what I want. Urban, Street, Landscape (by the way never in my life would I have ever of thought I’d like landscape, as I am a city boy, love the buzz the architecture, the atmosphere of cities) wildlife the works. I even have a better understanding of “street photography” 🙂 (which isn’t random photos of people standing in a street by the way 🙂 ).
I have also found a love for cycling, even better, photo cycling , where I take my camera with me and McSnap the shit out of what ever my heart desires. I’m absolutely delighted (apart from harboring violent tendencies toward dog walkers and owners , but that is a different blog) all of which, was just the medication I needed to slap me out of my pace toward the abyss of stress and anxiety, in fact I have that many photos as a result my new found Mojo that I have enough material for blogs for the next 20 years, lucky you 😉 . I have also lost well over a stone in weight, result, can’t wait to mankini season.
Of course, aside from my sneers toward some social media forums, please keep snapping, sharing, learning. Just because I left the club doesn’t mean you need to my “dearest” reader 🙂 it’s all about where you are at, for me, after a brutal yet fantastic learning experience of a year, I’m ready for 2018, bring it on, I might just have to Mcsnap the shit out of it 🙂 peace x here are some photos. PS. my next blog might be called “Why no one really cares about your photos 😉 “. But I just watched this video, and I think he covers all bases https://petapixel.com/2016/06/28/nobody-cares-photography/
Mark Mutch O’Hare